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Tuesday, 25 May 2010

what the...huh...interesting

It's amazing how you left an impression on me. Even after all this time I still remember how we met and how you made me feel.

Friday, 30 April 2010

Ugh...why do you annoy me so.

So...

D apparently has a new cell number. And...He has texted me almost everyday this past couple of weeks. It annoys me so. It's to the point where I don't reply. The first day I did so to be nice and friendly. However, once it got to the point of over sharing...yeah. Can't deal with that.

Then I wonder...Why do you want to talk with me so much?

And then of course...He states he's still attracted to me and blah blah blah.

He knows I have a boyfriend and yet he just has to share his thoughts and needs...

I need to nip this is the butt if he keeps on persisting.

Tuesday, 06 April 2010

I guess this is how it is to grow up...

I think I got most of the quarter life crisis stage out of me.

I remember when my friend Justin was in his quarter life crisis stage. He stated that at this point in time he thought he would be done with college and would have the whole white picket fence, the wifey and two ½ kids, etc. type of life by 25.

Within the last few months that is exactly how I was feeling.

I might not have accomplished or achieved as much as my peers, but I can say I am happy with what life has given me…and I plan to keep it that way.

[NOTE/EDIT]: While trying to edit this entry I ended up deleting my previous entries somehow. I really wanted to keep them as a reference and a reminder for myself...freaking sucks.

Tuesday, 25 August 2009

I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know I’m not afraid anymore.

Last weekend I spoke with the boyfriend after I was irked that he was chatting with his female “friend” on facebook. Yeah I called her a bi*** and a sl** and everything else because I still don’t like her.
After doing so I informed the boyfriend I’m going to bed. Once I was finished brushing my teeth he followed me and we talked. After a good amount of you should know how I feel and other crap I informed him that he isn’t my whole world. I appreciated that you’re a part of my world, but you’re not my WHOLE world anymore. I have other things in it and yes you take an important part, but you’re not the only thing in my life. Eventually I was able to just tell him I’m not sure what will happen to us. Whether you will fall out of love with me again or we stay together. But in the event that we break up…I’m not afraid anymore.

I learned a lot from our breakup from earlier this year. I know more about myself and what I want when it comes to relationships. I’m not sure what the boyfriend was feeling, however I felt I should make him aware of this information.
Just because she’s your female “friend” doesn’t mean I have to like the b***

This is really old news. However I felt if I blog about it and get it off my chest I can move and deal with the important stuff that’s in my life.
So apparently the boyfriend has a girl whom is his friend. They have known each other for a while. But the thing is I don’t care that she is his friend and that they talk or whatever. What pissed me off were her actions. Most likely she was joking around, I got that. However, no ever thinks of how the other party feels in these types of situations. I’m not sure if she knew he has a girlfriend. But in that case I would be pissed off at the boyfriend too, but whatever. Oddly enough I haven’t even met her and she just gets into my skin. I know jealously plays a part, but that’s not the majority.

Apparently she is (or was idk) an international student and at the time was not a US citizen. The boyfriend and a few others and she were talking one day about what she plans to do. Eventually marriage came up and all that junk. Straight to point she joked with the boyfriend that they should get married.

If you the reader actually read my blog you know (or remember) that my boyfriend doesn’t believe in marriage. But she jokes about it and he actually gave thought into it. In his opinion he said he likes helping his friends and he thought this wasn’t a bad idea.

So of course I’m pissed off for different reasons. My boyfriend won’t marry for love, but will if his friend needs a freakin’ green card. That she even joked about it with someone’s boyfriend to begin with. Another reason is I feel threaten by her, because I know the boyfriend is attracted to her.

I know it’s all stupid sh** but I can’t help but get pissed off about it. As the girlfriend I have the right to be pissed and not like her. Now if the boyfriend and I broke up, I wouldn’t care then.